This morning I had an interesting experience of expansion that because of this 30 day adventure I was able to turn around within about 20 minutes. Here's what happened and how I made myself feel better.
Okay so what is the situation that is bothering me? I am irritated that I let myself move from a feeling of excitement and inspiration about my business this morning to resistance, stubbornness and anger. I am irritated that my husband just took me out of the vortex by pushing his beliefs onto me and what I’m doing. I frustrated that he doesn’t mind his own business and let me flow with what I want to do. I'm irritated that I let that situation upset me so much. I’m irritated that he knows I have a lot to do and is pushing me to do more. I’m frustrated with myself about how slow the creation of my business is moving. I’m irritated with myself about not accomplishing more of what I want to do.
How do I want to feel on this topic? I want to appreciate my husband’s offer for help and see the value in his efforts to help me. I want to allow my abundance to flow in response to this contrast. I want to be in alignment again.
I hate it when people offer help or advice that I am not asking for. Hmmm… seems like a trend that is still happening which means I’m probably doing the exact same thing to others. I know Karl was just trying to help me. He cares for me and wants to help get me going towards all of things I’m excited about. It does irritate me though that he kept pushing the topic even when I gave in… he was being as stubborn as I was. Okay not helpful... he’s not inside my head so he doesn’t really know my expectations on this topic. He really does just want to help me.
He may have been thinking that I was planning to procrastinate on finding a web designer for months when I have the feeling that I’m going to attract one very soon who is the perfect person to help me with playfulliving.com. Someone who understands the law of attraction and wants to help create of one of the best interactive, online communities available that will assist thousands of people in creating the life of their dreams. Karl wants to be a part of that too and he believes that the sooner I throw something up the better… that actually does make sense to me.
I do want his help. I just had some resistance to his pushing and my old habit of being stubborn popped up. I’m glad I can recognize that so quickly now. I’m catching things more quickly all the time these days. I am excited about getting PlayfulLiving.com fully functional and attracting a brilliant, wonderful designer / programmer to help me make it phenomenal. I love that Karl understands my vision for this business and I love that he wants to help me. I love that he can help me get the site more functional than it is and that he is offering his services for free :)
Actually now that I’m feeling better I can see the value of our exchange more clearly and I feel appreciation for the expansion. Now I expect my business to pick up momentum and start coming into form more quickly. I am so excited to help thousands of people to find their own alignment and get clear on their dreams. I’m excited to continue to come into alignment more and more myself. Life is really good. Everything is happening perfectly. If I didn’t get frustrated about what I don’t want, I wouldn’t know what I do want as clearly as I do… and my dreams are becoming more clear all the time.
Thank you Karl… I’m excited to have my navigation bar fully functional so I can offer more tools to assist others. You are the best… I love you :)
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Ahh Jo, how truthful - I guess we all get pissed off with our loved ones sometimes! You turned things round really quickly and I hope now you feel even closer to each other than before. Onwards and Upwards!!
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Cathie xx
Good work Joanna. I have kept myself so busy that I haven't had time to be reading and writing here. But somehow it seems I am consciously or unconsciously turning my thoughts to the better feeling thought most of the time. I almost feel like you and others I am connected to are pulling me and we are all pulling each other along.
ReplyDeleteYour writing today made me stop to think if anything is causing irritation that I could turn around. I found the thought that I am not getting enough done and the fear or anxiety that I will get tons of orders and have nothing to send. I get kind of nervous with those thoughts and don’t like that feeling. So, I look at my toys and know how they bring me joy and put on my favorite music cds or Abraham cds and go to work. I really do enjoy the work and wish I had 50 hours a day to do it. But I know that the right people to help me make the toys will come when I need them. Other things seem to appear just as I begin to think I might need them. Things are really rolling along and there is no reason to fear that everything won’t keep moving in the direction of joy. That is really the only direction – toward joy – and since we will never get done, all we have to do is enjoy.
I just realized that the butterflies in my stomach that can be interpreted as nervousness could be turned around to excitement for the possibilities that are out there in front of me. So, I plunge in and enjoy the vortex.
Sally
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ReplyDeleteThats good Joanna, I am able to feedback some now. I have found myself working on four or five key issues, the same ones through the 27 days. I haven't managed to do the exercise everyday! Iam on about day 13. I've found though that I'm still flucuating, so moving up and down.
ReplyDeleteI intend to start afresh on a new 30 day adventure, just have a question. You've done different issues every day!have you revisited some of these through the 30 days?
Also is it ok to adapt this process for onew own stuff?
Yours in love and appreciation.
Jake
Hi Joanna! I'm still very much enjoying reading your journey on this 30-day adventure. I can relate to Sally's comment above, both turning my thoughts to the better feeling thought most of the time, and feeling pulled up by you. I have very high days of pure fun life and then lows of bills and 'why haven't I figured out how to joyfully make money?' too. You are going to get your brilliant Web Designer! If my skills were in Web Design I would be right there beside you! A fabulous Designer who resonates with these beautiful and simple principles is on his/her way to you now. If you find you need non-technical help I would be thrilled to be a part of this. OK and now I feel a rampage of appreciation coming on: YUM do I enjoy this Haagen-Dazs Butter Pecan ice cream. Ah how I LOVE summer! The ocean temperature has gotten so warm it feels magical to swim. My beautiful daughter Rachel is the happiest little girl I have ever known and I am absolutely blessed to share my days with her. This morning she is enjoying herself with other friends and I have time alone in my beautiful home to write and think. I'm surrounded by sunflowers in bloom and an intensely incredible nature. There's so much I could be doing but I'm now going to relish doing one thing at a time and really being present with it. The present present. Life is beautiful. Joanna, I hope to see you this Sunday at the brunch. I missed last month and look forward to being around our like-minded friends again. :^) Lynda
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